In anticipation for the start of school and continuing to work I have started to plan my meals ahead of time. Hopefully if I start it now then it will be a habit by then that I can continue. It won't be easy to get myself ready for the day as well as Makayla ready for daycare all in one morning so I've started planning meals the day before to get a head start. So far (2 days down haha) it's been working out. It has also been helping me stick with my diet because I know exactly what I'm going to eat. Frequently, I will be hungry NOW and not want to prepare anything so I opt for something that is easy but not necessarily healthy. Now I can still eat NOW and eat something that I won't feel guilty about later. I'm not perfect but for the majority of the time I've been proud that I'm sticking with healthy choices for the past 2 weeks now.
Also, I went and played ultimate frisbee. Boy did I suck. But I would have just stayed home watching TV so at least I got my lazy butt up and did something. But the true accomplishment of yesterday was something emotional. I have always been an emotional eater - who hasn't? Yesterday wasn't a great day, but I was proud that I didn't resort to filling up on junk to make me feel better (which really just adds guilt instead of contentment). The problems of yesterday resulted in being other people's attitudes and for once weren't piled on with my own guilt and bad choices. That made me feel so much better.
So one to today, a new day. My meals are all planned accordingly and going to gym is on the schedule. I haven't stepped on the scale in a week and I still don't plan to for a couple days. I'm feeling good so I don't want to spoil it if I'm not getting the immediate results I want.
What's that saying? If you don't plan to succeed you are planning to fail? Anywho, I want to succeed so plan away!!!!
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Monday, August 15, 2011
Can't Do It Alone
I would say that this past year has been a whirlwind, which is true, but in reality life has always been a whirlwind. I've conquered depression, somewhat single motherhood, and now I plan to fight weight loss. It seems a little trivial to blog about such a thing, but I'm coming to realize that I can't do this alone. I know that because I've tried and it's now time for a little accountability.
They say that it takes 9 months to put on baby weight so you should allow yourself 9 months to take it off. Well, Makayla turned 1 this weekend and I weigh no less than I did two weeks after she was born. But really, I was a little overweight right before I got pregnant. Through some research I realized that the culprit has really been some medication I was taking for the past two and a half years. So I ditched the meds and found a diet that deals specifically with taking off weight that is gained because of this medication. I have always been against diets because I felt like I didn't have the will power to follow through with them. So I made a few tweeks and pumped up my exercise. Nothing. So I tried other exercises. Nothing. I tried running more. Nothing....on and on....So a diet (with exercise) it is. And I'm ready. And this time I don't think about relying on my own will power. I've recruited the strongest power I know: The Holy Spirit. And now I've enlisted all of you to help me stay on track. I decided to use my self-consciousness as a benefit and put my journey out there.
So let's get to the nitty-gritty: my goals. I am currently a size 13 in jeans (yes, it's true) and a large for tops. I want to get down to a size 9 which a size bigger than I used to be, but my body composition has changed so much and no matter how much I lose I know that I won't have my old butt and hips back :) It is also my goal to get back to a small in tops and a small/medium in dresses. But most importantly I would love to take pictures with Makayla. I hate looking at myself in pictures now and that is no way to enjoy my life with her. There are so many good times I would love to look back on without cringing.
So stay tuned for more updates. Hopefully they will be positive ones for the most part.
They say that it takes 9 months to put on baby weight so you should allow yourself 9 months to take it off. Well, Makayla turned 1 this weekend and I weigh no less than I did two weeks after she was born. But really, I was a little overweight right before I got pregnant. Through some research I realized that the culprit has really been some medication I was taking for the past two and a half years. So I ditched the meds and found a diet that deals specifically with taking off weight that is gained because of this medication. I have always been against diets because I felt like I didn't have the will power to follow through with them. So I made a few tweeks and pumped up my exercise. Nothing. So I tried other exercises. Nothing. I tried running more. Nothing....on and on....So a diet (with exercise) it is. And I'm ready. And this time I don't think about relying on my own will power. I've recruited the strongest power I know: The Holy Spirit. And now I've enlisted all of you to help me stay on track. I decided to use my self-consciousness as a benefit and put my journey out there.
So let's get to the nitty-gritty: my goals. I am currently a size 13 in jeans (yes, it's true) and a large for tops. I want to get down to a size 9 which a size bigger than I used to be, but my body composition has changed so much and no matter how much I lose I know that I won't have my old butt and hips back :) It is also my goal to get back to a small in tops and a small/medium in dresses. But most importantly I would love to take pictures with Makayla. I hate looking at myself in pictures now and that is no way to enjoy my life with her. There are so many good times I would love to look back on without cringing.
So stay tuned for more updates. Hopefully they will be positive ones for the most part.
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